Light in the Darkness

After the birth of my third child, rapidly shifting hormones left me with a sudden loss of appetite, shaking, and — worst of all — the inability to sleep. I was so afraid and wondered how I would care for my newborn and two other children.

While things were particularly bad, our family went to the nearby Methodist church that we had never attended. I was handed a bulletin and started to cry when I read the quote on the front: “The Lord will be your everlasting light.”

I held on to that quote in the following months. I was diagnosed with postpartum insomnia, which I had never heard of. On the long nights when I couldn’t sleep, I would pray for peace, but it didn’t come. I felt alone and as if God didn’t hear my prayers. But I didn’t give up. I kept reminding myself that the Lord would be my everlasting light.

Thankfully today, a year later, I am healed. I now attend that church regularly and read The Upper Room each day. Daily prayer, my doctors, my therapist, my family, and medication were all integral to my healing process. The Lord was my everlasting light, even when I could not see it. God is with us always; we are not alone.