Author of Abundant Blessings

The devotion about being blessed and humbled got me thinking about the trajectory of my journey.

Beloved, we come to God’s throne because it’s really the only place for Grace.

We come to life seeking blessings, but sometimes we get burdens.  

Still, God is a healing presence despite our flaws and frailties. Despite the blessings and burdens, we come to the only True Love who loves unconditionally.

We give and we get — God orchestrates this. At the age of twenty-six, spoiled and steeped in privilege, I didn’t get it. Now I do.

I’ve stared death in the face multiple times since those troubling years, but in each instance, God was with me.

Since 1981, with God’s help, I’ve stared down the death of alcohol, cocaine and weed. With God’s help, and meds, I continue to stare down the death of demons linked to mental disorders.  And now most recently, God is helping me stare down death once again with my addictions to gaming and gambling.

I’m front and center with my flaws and frailties – sometimes stuck, sometimes unstuck, but thankful to God for healing me by his stripes and with his grace.

I write publicly to own these imperfections and to reconnect with God’s people – humans like myself who sometimes struggle. Flawed? Yes, but faithful. Fragile? Absolutely, but authentic.

I realize I can’t get past the mistakes I’ve made until I admit them and then move beyond them.  Otherwise, they will manifest themselves like poison and since my spirit sways in the yoke of sadness and joy, my fingers clutch the shreds of Jesus’ garment, hoping, praying, believing and knowing that God is a God of grace. In thought and in action, a Healer; the author of abundant blessings.